lifes rough

That's honestly all there is to it. Life's fantastic......Super hard and stressful, I'm quite impressed at the ones that have it harder than I do. They do magical things.
Well, I'm currently looking for a job. But I have no car to be driving...so I'm just sorta waiting...for something. I'm trying to figure out what I'm supposed to be doing.
I got an old letter from Chase today, and it was super sad. It really sucked..cause I don't really know how he's feeling right now, or at all really, at least not about his mission. But I can understand the things he says from my own point of view. It's rough...
Also, I'm trying to not be like my mom and stay locked up in my room all day, especially since it's just weird to be where I am...at the moment. Except for the fact that I've moved around and been in different places awkwardly, and had to get used to them, that I can almost always make a weird/awkward situation feel comfortable and normal. It's an odd talent to have. I said I was like a chameleon once. Able to adapt to change. I bet the chameleons hate it...
Thought I'm still sitting up in my room, on the computer. ha..what a great thing to do.. But I was out a lot today I guess. And I've only been here for a little while. Plus I was downstairs earlier watching the bachelor, ha which is super hilarious...I really want to watch pretty little liars, I must soon. Even though I don't like tv...I sometimes do not have anything else to do.
I can't waste my money on a gym membership...so I'm going to start going to the one on post with Keturah. Which is good, except now I can't tan. And tanning honestly makes me so much happier. It's been proven. So I'm just going to be not as happy as I could be, while I'm super pale...but hopefully I'll at least be in shape. Maye I'll get real buff.
I don't know what else to do with my life while I'm here. I seriously just need a job so I can save money. Oh the joys of mentally being a completely different age than I really am.... Life, is rough.

"There is no force on earth more powerful than the will to live."

second try

So I've been super busy in life lately. Right now I'm in washington until april, since I'm off track at school. I haven't emailed chase in super long, so I felt super bad, but I finally emailed him yesterday which was good cause he replied today. And it was pretty long, for him. :)

So I'm staying at Jessicas right now, but I'm getting ready to move out today I think and go stay where my moms staying.

New years was pretty fun. I got to go up to Port Townsend, and to Seattle. Super pretty...both places. So I was really happy. We went to some dance and then watched the fireworks from the space needle. (Kj, Britt, Aaron, Pax, and I) (Aarons sis Molly was there too, and some other kids) It was super sweet, and I wore a dress baha which is very not me, but it was cool lol.

Today Keturah is coming over after pierce. Then we're gunna kick it. Go to the gym. And take my stuff over to dupont and help me move in hopefully. lol I don't think it'll be too difficult. At least I hope not.

Well that's all for now.

 The Gang.....of New Years

 Seattle :)

Port Townsend.